But here's the big news from the Fuzzy Noodle Home...
We got a phone call out of the blue on Wednesday, telling us that CJ's birth mother is expecting at the end of February and has asked us to parent. We said yes in a heart beat. We had no plans to add a second child to our family any time soon, if at all, but the opportunity to parent CJ's little brother is an amazing gift and blessing. We are so excited to be a family of four very soon!
That said, I did not eat or sleep for 3 days. I cried almost all morning on Thursday. We have been feeling ALL the feelings. I think at first we were overwhelmed by all that we need to do to make this happen so quickly. Then I had all these crazy feelings about not being ready to make CJ a big brother...he still sleeps in his crib, he still has a bottle at bed time...HE'S STILL A BABY. To have to prepare him to be a big boy in 4 weeks is really emotional for me. And then I realized that I finally had been getting some good and regular sleep lately, now that CJ's is sleeping much better, and now that's over for another two year. And then Chuck and I had to do some thinking about how our marriage was going to change with this surprise addition. And how in the world are we going to make the logistics of the actual adoption occur with a toddler in tow?
But all of the panic has dissipated, and now we are just feeling excited for our new child! And I cannot even begin to tell you how honored we are that we have been asked to parent again. It is the biggest vote of confidence we have ever been given. CJ and his brother are not only going to be brothers by blood, but also by love. Keeping sibling sets together in adoption is so important, and these boys are going to have a life-long bond. As shocking as this all is, it is possibly the best thing to happen to all three of us.
So we are going to get though this! It's crazy bananas, but this is how we build our family. We can do it. We are going to make this work.
Send chocolate. And caffeine.